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This Is the Bad Place
00:30
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Calm Seas
03:32
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What hasn’t killed me has me splitting at the seams.
But I’ll pull myself together,
Even if it’s by the skin of my teeth.
These four walls can’t hold me;
This room was never meant for glory.
I’m moving on from lessons learned and the legacy we made.
Hold on, ‘cause we’re just getting started;
Our names will be set in stone.
I remember when this all was a dream,
And nothing more than a perception of the person I could be.
I will always point myself in the right direction,
And trust what I believe.
I’m throwing fists against the wind,
In hopes that I’ll feel anything again.
How can we get what we want,
Yet never know how this ends?
Die young, and the world will remember your name,
But the legacy will fade.
I’m letting you in so I don’t let myself down again.
This life will break me, but it’s all I have in the end.
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3. |
Louder Now
03:28
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The speech I gave on New Years Eve,
Never stuck with anyone but me.
It’s been three years gone by, but I still believe.
But I still-
The good, the bad, and the downright shitty;
I want to take that message with me,
And shout it out to the world,
From the mouth of a youth gone postal.
I don’t think we’re sold on just getting by,
When there’s not enough time,
To confess all these thoughts in my state of mind.
There’s so much left to say, but the world doesn’t care to listen.
So we’re gonna get louder now,
Until the ground shakes beneath us.
Leave our mark for the one’s who proceed us,
And never let the flame we lit go out.
So we’re gonna get louder now, and send out a warning.
This is everything you wanted to be.
There’s a time and place for life to work out;
It’s coming soon for me.
Everyday feels shorter than the last,
And these nights I spend alone won’t end;
I’m falling out of touch again.
I can’t close the distance,
And running your mouth won’t fix this.
We’re at odds and I think that you just can’t get past,
The notion that this might be bigger than you and me,
Just getting by when there’s not enough time,
To remember the days that defined our lives.
There’s so much left to say, and the world’s gonna listen.
I’d give it all,
To make you fucking believe.
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Twelve years of growing disdain.
Please don’t take this the wrong way,
But living life like this ain’t living.
I’ve seen the greatest fall the hardest,
And to be honest, I’m not too far behind.
I’m just waiting to get mine.
Just waiting to get mine.
It takes the best of us,
Chews us up, and makes the world feel small,
And I’m sorry that you had to leave us all,
Second guessing time we spent;
Wasted years, but I’m over it.
This place will always be the death of us.
I made my peace; found reverie in suffering.
Take the pain away with substances keeping me awake.
Losing sight of what could kill me,
But I’m scared that it doesn’t scare me.
Is this the way I’ll forever be?
Jenn, I’m so sorry I couldn’t save you.
You’ll always guide this heart of mine.
Robin, I loved you like a mom.
You gave me a home, and you gave it all.
Colton, life took you way too soon.
The world was better because of you.
Tom, you made me a better man;
Showed me what mattered most in the end.
I wanted to shape my own life,
After the people who changed me before they died.
I’ll always love you for everything that you gave me.
Thank you for all that you gave me.
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Closure
02:58
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So let’s pick up where we left off;
I don’t know why it’s been so long.
Were we hoping that something just might change?
Well, I’ve about all but lost it;
Exchanging my pride for substance,
And anything that’ll make it feel like I might get a grip again.
Well, I’m counting down the days;
I know that I’ll relapse again.
Suppress the worst years,
That weigh heavy on my head.
I let the guilt of past mistakes burn a hole in me;
I never got my closure, so please let me speak.
So am I better off dead?
Place the barrel against my head.
I’ve come back from worse than this.
Swallow the words that you left unsaid;
The ones who needed to hear them didn’t make it to the end.
So am I better off dead, or is this all a part of a bigger plan,
That I can’t see quite yet?
I let the guilt of past mistakes burn a hole in me;
I never got my closure, so please let me speak.
I’m running out of time;
I borrowed yours as I wasted mine.
I never got the chance to make it right.
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I think I’m better off like a past life,
Born and realigned when I could have stopped.
Just end the cycle; losing fights.
Walking blocks on empty streets. grasping threads of clarity,
And hoping that I’ll turn out alright.
Hold on, and you’ll be fine.
You found a home, and I’ll find mine.
I guess it’s safe to say,
(The world ain’t as bad as it seems.)
I’m proud of how I aged.
(You’ll never understand what it means.)
I’ve grown tired of hating myself.
I’ll save it for somebody else.
So this is how it goes; this fear of the unknown;
What we’ve outgrown.
I still have so much left to say,
And not a day that I don’t wonder,
What it means to be a part of anything.
I’ll be alright in the meantime.
You have your life, and I’ll live mine.
The world ain’t as bad as it seems.
The world ain’t as bad as it seems.
I’d give you it all just to make you believe,
The world ain’t as bad as it seems.
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7. |
Shot In the Dark
03:52
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Well, I'm thinking it's a bad idea,
To let this dream die and fall to the wayside.
I'm thinking it's a two-sided story,
Of telling your friends about how this changed me.
You're calling the shots like you might have a shot in the dark,
And I'm well-equipped to reject your advances;
Misguided romantics.
I'm happier than I've ever been and now.
Whoa, we are not letting go.
Whoa, this is all that we know.
Do you feel like this could be the one to set it off?
'Cause it looks like you're never getting there.
This could be the one I'm waiting for.
(I'll be waiting for the moment you hit the floor)
Do you feel like this could be the one to set it off?
Die young and the world will remember your name;
But the struggle still remains.
Moving forward as if time held no bearing.
Your reflection is staring,
And the grin that you're wearing won't save you now.
You can't back down.
When it all falls apart, take it back to the start,
And remember what it took to get here.
Whoa, we are not letting go.
Whoa, this is all that we know.
(Die young, die young, die young)
The world will remember your name.
(I'll be waiting for the moment you hit the floor)
The world will remember your name.
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2018 - forever.
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